Welcome back.
hi. its been a long time i didnt write. it feels like i dont have any idea what to share here.its actually not like that.it just too much to let it all out but idk where to start.
have you ever feel like you dont even deserve to step on this world? because you feel bad.you bring nothing here. life is unfair but you realise that it must still go on. am i bring joy to anyone here? am i that cruel to myself? am i deserve to be happy?
its not what i asked for. i just want to feel normal. i treasure a lot. no one could understand. im sorry for being like this. i just dont know how to convince people that ive tried as much as i can but i failed. i could never be good. its terrible.
im not perfect. i do mistakes. i cant stop thinking. what if im the main cause for all the damage?
no no i cant put all the blame on me. there will always have the way out for all of these. all you need to do is stay tough, optimist and not impulsive. figure out one by one. do you believe that for every problems there must have solutions? yes i do. but everytime i try to fix that, i feel like i just waste my time. i dont even have the power to be good.
what i want right now is for once, i need to appreciate myself more than i think people can do that to me. you are just you. more powerful than you ever think. believe on that, always. x
till then.
